Judy at least you were honest and came clean she can't take that away from you.
Women want their men to be honest and "talk" about their feeling right? You did that so your part is done.
As for walking on egg shells (which I did for years) until one day I said to myself I deserve to have a voice and I wasn't going to let her run my life.
She handed me a "honey do list" for the weekend and I tossed it back and said I'll cut the grass on Sunday you can do the rest I'm going fishing.
As I was loading up she said she was sorry for being so mean to me.
My reply was an act of defiance on my part but to her it was me making a stand and not being a wimp.
Maybe its time not to just roll over to her whims and desires.