Hi Tracii, it's been about 3 months now since I put everything together.

My family and wife are what are stopping me telling. If I say nothing their lives are unaffected and they can happily go on. There is just something inside of me telling me I should do this.

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Hi Orchid, I'm not sure what u mean but think u mean put my family first? I have done and maybe will continue too. Who knows.

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TracyT, the last 3 words. Dammed if I do dammed if I don't. If I tell and she hates it I get divorced if I don't tell I fear it will form part of a gap that's forming leading to it anyway. I don't want either btw.

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Tracii, yes no stash is better and that's why I got rid. Had everything from heels to wig to foundation to eyeliner. I think that would have been hard for her to deal with rather than just hearing me say it. I do have pics but they are hidden and not findable.

I have done little things over time to keep my gem side sane shaved my legs a couple of times and currently my nails are quite long and I paint them.

Anything to stem the tide for a little while.

With regards to evidence of I'm going to tell my wife then I'm prepared for anyone else we know to also know. The problem I believe will not be with me and people knowing but for her and any negative reactions it may cause her/our family.

Don't get me wrong I'm not going to suddenly be dressing 24/7 it will be private with the dream being a night out somewhere or shopping in a far away town etc.

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Teresa,

Thank you, you have been supportive before and I have moved no further forward with anything.

Actually that's not true in a sense as I'm more sure in my mind as to what/who I am it's just conveying that in the best way when the time comes to talk about it.

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Shelly, TY I will check out the link in your bio.

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Gardener, I want to tell my SO before I talk to someone else professionally about it. No-one knows my secret and I feel she should be the first.