Why didn't other males not feel this draw too?
Homophobia, body type, porn consumption, family upbringing, and just sheer coincidence.
As for acceptance, You just gotta go out or stay in, it's simple. Even if the world was as accepting as you wanted it to be, you would still be too afraid to go outside. The worlds acceptance of CDing doesn't change how masculinity works. Your fears are the same as most of everyone elses, We fear having our poor male pride shattered in an instant by humiliating giggles and judgment.
But male pride isn't exactly real, It's just a made up concept that we perceive as being very real and needs to be guarded at all cost.
