Rogina:
My "condition".
I'm in the same gender boat as many here.
A "lifer" in that I always harbored a femme side but never understood it; most often denied it.
Dabbled in underdressing and SOME drag dressing in my youth.
Lived a "normal straight life", married for 40 yrs
Came to full crossdressing about 2 yrs ago. The lights went on, so to speak.
The look, the feel, the identification with women and a will to live as a woman ...... all of it, have become entirely too important to me.
Yes, it's more than just the clothing. If given a choice right now I believe I could live comfortably full time as a woman.
I just don't know where I am yet on the transgender spectrum, though I truly believe I am squarely on it.
I'm taking baby steps. I'm taking notes. Finally I'm getting around after almost 6 decades of fighting it, to resolving my lifelong gender issues.
BUT..... I value the wonderful life I've built, my marriage and the relationships I have. Such things are not disposable. On the other hand, I can't see myself living miserably in gender hell and denial. NO MORE. I am also learning from this forum site and the experiences of my sisters.
I need to be sure, for a long long time before I commit to literally change my life.
From the bottom of my loving heart, I thank you and everyone for sharing their stories; for the love and support you girls bring.
