Whenever this topic recurs, I'm reminded, while reading through the responses, of Bubba listening to a group of astrophysicists discussing their area of expertise and thinking to himself, "I can't understand what they are talking about. They must be stupid." The problem is that many are trying force any expression of sexuality into the simplistic gay/bi/straight model and some things just don't fit so they they are reduced to invalidating the feelings they can't understand. The OP is as good an expression of autogynephilia (AGP) as you are going to get. AGP is neither gay, bi nor straight. When you understand AGP, you understand constructs like "bi when dressed," "male lesbian," and "I'm straight but...." AGP is proof that sexual orientation and gender identity are NOT separate things. Sexual orientation is not wholly inborn but can be shaped by things like imprinting and trauma. Once "set" it is most likely immutable. And yes I have experienced AGP in its various forms. One of my favorite AGP fantasies is of GGs with penises. Is that gay, bi or straight? I'm sooo confused. I dreamed that up when I was a teenager, long before I discovered futanaria. But my very first orgasm was from imagining myself dressed as a female having sex with dudes. What is important in that fantasy is not the dudes but the state of feminisation (emasculation.) If I were really gay or bi I would probably know it by now. In fact I would prefer being gay to AGP but since AGP is immutable, I'm stuck with it for the duration.
