Ilene, I live in Wisconsin now. I never had a wife of kids. I have had lifelong trouble with my parents first, and also my siblings. I have few friends. My cats a re my closest buddies. I never have come out to my relatives, thankfully. I have felt suicidal at times, as most of us have at times, but always weathered the storms. People on this forum have helped encourage me several times when i was extremely deep in depression and was thinking of it. I have religious issues about my CDing too, and it is a real conflict. One of my vices is fantasizing about being Alice with a gentleman, but i would refrain from penetration sex, due to morals, even though my religion forbids wearing clothing of the opposite sex, too. Life is full of conflicts, and i guess it was meant to be so. But, we must learn to accept it,on its terms.
