Spousal abuse whether for a CD non CD, male or female is not right. I knew a Navy Sailor a few years ago who was big burly 6 foot 2 and 275 pounds. He would come in from time to time with serious cuts and bruises. No one questioned his excuses for the marks. It wasn't until he wound up in Intensive Care , that it came out that his diminutive 5 foot 2 inch 100 pound wife was the one assaulting him.
My point is, you need to seek help or guidance. You need to have a plan in case this happens again.