Hi Jean,
It sounds to me like you are questioning whether to continue as is? If you don't feel like you have a need to transition, no need to worry about that.
Sounds like having a boyfriend is enjoyable - so maybe it is worth thinking about what is the endgame in that respect? Do you want to find a long term partner?
You know you don't want to work 24/7. but do you want a new job with new challenges or more money to enjoy life without transitioning?
What other topics do you wonder about that give you the feeling of being in a holding pattern?
