Brianna, you cannot do this without some professional guidance. That need shows very clearly in your posts. I do not know in what area of the country you are located, but PM some of the responders on this thread and see if they can help you find a counselor. Yes, it will cost money and maybe you can get some insurance coverage, but look at it as an investment in the rest of your life so the annual costs will be quite small. And if Jeri Ann is offering guidance, listen carefully.
