Sherry,
I feel it's something that evolves , I posted in the NB section a thread titled , " If Only !" meaning if only there was no going back to male mode simply because my dysphoria gives me problems when I have to revert to drab .

I know some are going to jump on you for saying you know how it feels to be a woman , I guess what we should really say is all the conditions are in place to appear like a woman but we can only feel as we always feel but look very different on the outside , for me that is as close as I can get to fulfilling that ideal . If I can live a comfortable life being accepted as that I will be very happy and it is happening now . You call this the " Vanilla " world , to me it's the life I prefer to live .