This is crazy life in pieces putting pieces together. The first piece I remember was changing schools after my Dad got in a argument with my babysitter. Whose dad owned the house. Because she put me in a dress I was playing hopscotch with the girls. So we moved and I do not know what I did but I was getting beat up by a big girl well bigger than me. And than the boys started beating me up. I was in third grade. Well one day when I was in a fight with a boy which back then. Mean getting hit
saying I give up fight over. Well on that day my dad showed up to see who was beating me up. He was over my face and called my name told me to fight back. So I did I guess I was more scared of my dad than the kid. Because I do remember getting kicked over the couch either because I got in Moms draws or because I stole a pair of stockings from woolworths. Well after that you learn it is not acceptable behavior quickly.At that time back then you fought until you hit were you fit in. Well we moved again to a inner city and started drinking, drugs and following the older guys in the area. Dad worked nites mom was a nurse worked days. So grandma was our sitter. So we moved again this time to the country fishing, and guy things. Drinking in the woods huffing pam and working no work no beer or cigs. Well guys in my group were getting girlfriends. But I did not have that drive still have not figured it out. Bought Dianetics: The Modern Science of Mental Health" by L. Ron Hubbard well that did not give me my answers. So still with questions dove deeper into guy thing this is hand I was dealt play it. So started to play football it did not last long showers no hair well that didn't last long. Have to go to work now I do not know if anyone will read it or not.
