I can relate to this completely. I don’t have the classic defined symptoms of feeling trapped in the wrong body, etc - and I don’t believe I *am* a woman... but I definitely wish I was one.... but that’s largely I think due to my self perceived failures as a man (despite not really having any). CDing fills (or attempts to fill) vast emotional holes for me and my wishing to be a woman probably is a lie to myself that if I were one those emotional voids would be fulfilled permanently. I don’t believe it and would have to sacrifice way too much to even dress full time etc. So I simply have to accept a certain level of misery to maintain the status quo and hope that I can find some enjoyment in life somehow.... not a great recipe for happiness, but it is what it is.
