You described me, too. i totally relate. I wish i could turn a switch to go back and forth sometimes. I am a 65 year old bachelor that never had a mate, and have struggled with this same thing for many decades. I know i can never be a lady, but i sometimes escape my male predicament by becoming the tall, older gorgeous lady for short fun moments, and i do have sexual arousement form her in the mirror, but with low T now, not so much as in the past. I could not be a perfect woman though, or perfect man. I try for excellence much, and to stay humble.
