I really dislike lables - gay, straight, bi, pan etc etc etc...why cant we just be Human...?

The first thing to do is understand your depression and anxiety. Diving into a relationship or experiment without truly understanding yourself can lead to further depression and anxiety. I agree with all here who recommend seeing/talking to a professional. Figuring that out and learning to cope with it is your first step.

As for realizing or acting on your fantasy - understand that fantasies are sometimes best left as fantasies. Especially in your case where it may be motivated by that depression.

Having said that, if you want to try life on the wild side, go for it but, as others have said, be careful and understand that starting into a relationship with a gay man with you as the woman is frought with dangers and more disappointments. And here i speak from personal experience. I've had several intimate relationships with men. My first was with my best friend in high school. Obviously, we wre both young and inexperienced. At the time, i'd just started to dress and i brought that into our relationship. He was ok with it because, well, we were both trying to find out what it was all about. We were together for about a year (in secret of course) until he and his family moved. I'd lost track of him for a while until a few years ago. He is since married to a wonderful man. I asked him if his husband dresses? He said no. As we talked, i discsoverd that my former BF is into very masculine men. Very common in gay relationships. My second LTR with a man was after i left the army and graduated from law school. There, my BF knew that i dressed but hated seeing en femme. It is whatt led to our very ugly breakup. Are there gay men who find CDs attractive? Of course
there are but finding them is like finding a woman who likes her husband to be feminine and dressed. It happens but its rare.

So,bottom line - if all youare looking for is casual sex to realize a fanatasy - be careful. The pitfalls are deep and treacherous on so many levels. Just know and understand what you are getting into when and if you decide to go that route.