Sandi, I respect your courage for being so forthright about your not-so-"excellent adventure" during last year's New Year's Eve and for "owning" your bad judgement and questionable behavior at that time. Lesson learned for both yourself and others here who might be inclined to go down that same road.

But enough with the self-flagellation...at what point does your wife start to take ownership as well for treating you so shabbily so as to drive you to this point of desperation. For the "high crime" of crossdressing and wanting to wear pantyhose in her presence? Is she so virtuous, upstanding, and without skeletons in her own closet that she can act so "holier-than-thou", judgmental, and aspire to be a candidate for sainthood?