Sandi,
Thanks for clarifying things. Geeezz, talk about playing with fire. If you haven't already, stop! If wearing hose generated such strong reaction then I'd make sure she can't get at anything sharp when she finds out as it might be you she wants to cut up.
We all understand how these desires can overwhelm us. One of the skills we have to acquire is patience. Knowing when it's the time and place for us to do something that we'd rather not have others know about.
Time for a deep breath and admit this is a step too far and end it before it ends your marriage.
