Star,
Do you enjoy walking ? Have you considered taking basic items suitable to look femme enough , little makeup and a suitable wig and head off in your van for a day out walking . Very few people will see you and possibly only at a distance if they do all the conversation will consist of is a quick " Hello " . At least some of your needs might be met , the only problem is it can become addictive but at least you're building your confidence up gradually . It's a wonderfull feeling saying , " Heck , I can do this !!"
