Thank y'all for the advice. This is a process I?m so scared of but feel I have to do this. I will begin transitioning under the radar at my current job. One thing I am nervous about is breast growth and when I will need to begin wearing a bra to make sure my breasts develop a visually pleasing shape. If that needs comes at 4 months or so then that is when I will have to jump ship. My current employer and coworkers will NEVER accept me transitioning. I know that federal law requires they treat me respectfully, but they will find ways around that and I don?t want to leave and be subject to a bad reference, i.e. they would convey that they would not hire me again.

I figure, if I start out as Natalie at a new job, I?m sure they will perceive changes that I experience them. So I will just be a woman that undergoes some changes as time goes on. Whereas, where I work now, it will not just be a woman that goes through changes, but the guy that they once knew is now a woman and also, she is experiencing all these changes. Perhaps I?m way overthinking this. I?m just afraid that the changes, for the people where I currently work, will be too much and I will experience a good bit of blowback.

Also, I am looking for employment at businesses that are transgender friendly and hoping that will help a good bit. I?d love to get a job with Torrid corporate and be able to work from home and continue living in NC. That's just a dream for now, though.