There is definitely a tension from expressing things about myself that others will likely find to be odd and maybe even bothersome. But, wearing makeup, in general, has given me a sense of strength and confidence that I hadn't expected. I am fortunate that my first encounter like that was with someone who I would feel more comfortable seeing me like that. My presentation wasn't overly feminine but did push my envelope a bit. So, overall, it's given me a sense of freedom.
I've hit a sweet spot for me at the moment. The shadow and mascara are not obvious, but are likely detectable to observant people, especially up close. I'm ok with that. I'm still playing with shadows to find just the right balance. Understated but slightly dramatic.





