Once again, a huge thank you to all the help, advice and support you are all giving me. It does mean alot and is helping me to understand my wifes feelings and my own as well.

For everyone that has sent me a PM or offered to chat to me over Yahoo, and would also like to say a special thank you and to appologise for not having taken anyone up on these offers yet. Things have been really hectic with the business trip and I simply haven't had the opportunity or time to return PMs or start chatting.

I promise that, once I get settled into the hotel in India and have time to chat then I will. Again, many thanks for all that have offered to chat.

Deborah, regarding the trip to India; I agree that it's probably bad timing although with my wife wanting me out of the house anyway it's maybe an opportune moment to be away. Due to bad timing (my fault) and the fact that this trip is very important it's not something I can get out of easily. I'm also likely to be VERY busy so this may help me also.

I went over to the house tonight to pick pack for the trip, this was the first time I have seen my wife since the Sunday and I was VERY nervous.

It turned out that my wifes mother had also turned up which I thought may be a rather mean thing to do but it turns out that she may have simply been there to help my wife out. I don't have a problem with this.

It also meant that my son was there which was hard but at the same time it was really nice to see him and be able to give him a big hug and kiss.

I talked a little to my wife who was still very angry and tried to explain my history of CDing and why I hadn't told her anything before getting married. She was more angry than upset during this (I can understand) and she is adamant that she has now lost her husband (she isn't wearing any of her rings - I still wear mine).

When I started to pack it got too much for me and I broke down completely, I thought I was going to be calm and relatively together, I was totally wrong. Hearing my son playing downstairs and all sorts of other things made me cry uncontrollably, it really was too much.

I now just feel drained and tried and need to get to sleep ... shouldn't really be on the computer but haven't got anyone else to talk to at the moment.

My wife has said I can see my son at anytime and has agreed to let me see him on his birthday, which is when I return home from India. She has also, very grudingly, said I can be at his party on the Saturday. She has said I can't stay in the house at all.

She phoned some friends of ours and they have guessed something is wrong but don't know what. They will be at my sons party as well.

I'm hoping (in vain in all probabilty) that the two weeks apart will help my wife calm down and maybe I will be able to stay in the house. If I can't I really don't know what I'll do, I don't have many local friends who have space for me

I best go get some sleep, got to be up early.

Again, thank you all for everything you have said, I really do appreciate it ... I wish I could think of better words to say thank you