Pocoyo,
Being both male and female is not easy.
I am happy to jump back and forth for there are pro's and con's to both genders.
One fortunate thing you have is you can grow your own hair and be both sexes. Some of us have wigs to acheive our female self for our male profession won't allow long hair.
You must find what makes you happy. Being crossgendered or leading just one gender.
Of course if you choose the female gender as a permanant basis, you know the money involved and what all that partakes.
Fortunatey you are young enough to think this through while some of us are older and wish things were different.
Ask questions!! This is your group therapy. But only you can provide the answers even you seen a shrink the ultimate answer would still be up to you.
Love,
Tamera