Hi girls,
Wanted to share how my femme side seems to be dominating my life right now. Can anyone relate to the following?
A quick reminder. I came out as Sara in 2003 and have been out as her numerous times. Mainly nights out and also a shopping trip as Sara. The urge to go out as Sara was overwhelming. Well, I've now reached what appears to be the next chapter in my life.
For quite some time now, my male wardrobe has been diminishing and my female attire has been increasing. Let me explain. For the past year, i've been buying more and more female clothing to wear as my male self, 'Alan'. Obviously not skirts or anything that shouts out 'girly'. For example, clothing like ladies' jeans and tops but with no noticeable embroidery or lace etc etc. At first i felt nervous and self-conscious as i didn't know what society would think. No one seems to notice, though.
However, i'm now finding the need to wear girly stuff for work. I've just bought a pair of ladies' black formal trousers which are slightly flared at the bottom and i'd really like to wear them for work on Monday. BUT, i've got that nervous feeling again! All the "if's" and "but's" are going through my mind but at the same time something inside is telling me i have to go for it.
I've recently been going into work with french manicured nails and i wore mascara one day last week so i'm expressing myself more now. People that have read my threads would also have read that i've come out to a few girls at work which i'm sure they've spread to everyone else in the office, too. I've had no adverse reaction from any of them (bless 'em!)
I guess i'm just apprehensive at how far this will all go? Ladies trousers for work now and then the need to wear a ladies shirt/blouse? Where will it all end? I feel as if my life is being dictated right now. I don't mean that in a negative way as i like that i'm expressing my girly side and it makes me happy.
Am i making sense, girls? Hope so. Would like to hear other girls' experiences which mirror mine or are similar, please?
Anyway, enough rambling on from me and i hope to hear from people soon.
Sara xxxx