As someone in the closet because my wife would not wish to have the consequences of having to live with a crossdresser I have total empathy with TreeGG.
My wife loves and supports me utterly and gives me a wonderful life but she wants me as the male she married, had her children by, respected by in a working life and by friends and wider family. Why should she have her life turned upside down to meet my desires and compulsions.
So although she is aware that is as far as it goes and because I love her that is where it will stay and the childre will not know either.
Sometimes I wonder if my compulsions could be compared to alcoholism or drug addiction?