Gone down an unexpected path?

[Bree-asaurus]

But surely from the beginning you felt something was different about you? I mean, back when I was a young confused teen, I thought my dressing might mean I was gay, so I tried to fantasize about being with a guy, but even in the privacy of my fantasies I just couldn't.

Even now, I feel like If I were attracted to men, people would understand (in their own ways...) my desire to transition more. Like my ex still can't wrap her mind around me wanting to be a woman, but not being attracted to men.

Well I always felt something was different. But that doesn't mean I knew I liked guys. I would always get attached to guys when I was younger, but never thought anything about it. I would move from one "best friend" to another, always getting jealous when I saw them playing or hanging out with other guys.

I would cross dress when I was younger... but just for the fun of the act itself. It wasn't until late high-school that I even considered being with somebody and I didn't even date or have relationships until I was 21. I was a very late bloomer. Even when I was with women and it didn't fit... I just assumed it was normal and I just had to "play the game" so to speak.

I never thought I was thick-skulled, but all this makes me wonder, haha.