I can only speak for myself. At my age it stands to reason that I am not in any stage to become TS. It should have/would have happened a long time ago. For me, to use your words, it is a stand alone self expression of my male gender brain with a strong feminine side. I am not in denial what so ever.
Sorry Kitty, I strongly disagree with you. I think a very small percentage of CD'ers are in fact TS at any stage. For starters, I bet the majority of CD'ers are the ones we call fetish dressers. Next is that group that fully enjoys being a male and would never give that up. But like many of us, enjoys his short stays in the feminine world he makes when he has the time and inclination to dress.
Some one else said it. You are born TS. But I don't belive we are born CD. That is from early childhoon socialization and personal expression brought on for a multitude of reasons.
Notice that it's those that know they are TS are the ones that support the theory that CD's are really TS on some denial trip. Next are those that say they wish they were TS or would have transitioned if they knew what they knew at an earlier age.
I honestly think you are judgeing form your bad experience with a man that may or may not be a TS that regardless was not a caring. loving person that used and abused you. I'm sorry that happened to you... sincerely. But don't throw us all into the same pigion hole your ex was in. CD, TS, makes no difference. if I remember your story correctly, he simply was not a good person. Some of us are and some of us are not. And the majority by far would not take the path your ex did.