So I got a text from my brother-in-law this evening, Yeah, my wife outed me to someone else. At least this time she asked me - unfortunately, she only asked me after she outed me. I told her I don't trust her and I don't feel safe being Paula while she's in the house.
We'll stay together until after our son gets married. We're seriously talking about how we separate and divorce. We're done. It'll take a while to unwind, but we are done.
I'm considering giving myself permission to completely melt-down. Options:
1. Storm around the house enraged breaking stuff until I break one of my own limbs
2. Cry myself into a catatonic stupor
3. The big sleep
Opinions? Oh wait, I can't do that - too many people in my life need me. What about what I need? Who ****in' cares, apparently. I just need to hang on to give and give and give and give and give and give and give and give and give and give and give and give and give until I'm used up.
edit:
Thanks everyone for the votes! Storming around the house like a crazy person won by a landslide. Popping a xanax now to try to avoid property damage...
