Curse Within,
I am not sure I can relate to how you feel because I have always felt my desires as a blessing. I guess I have always wanted to be a woman and not just dress like one. So these feelings are an essential part of me. I often think about a question that my first therapist asked me when I started with her---"If I could give you a pill and you would no longer want to be woman or dress as a woman-all of those desires would be gone. Would you take it?"
I answered no. I don't want it to ever go away.
