I appreciate the input, I really do.
Just to clear up a few points:
1. I am not sure if there is real love anymore.
2. I do want to take it further (not sure how far though).
3. I have been thinking about and trying to get her to understand, counseling, etc. for 5 yrs. now. That may not be long to some people but I am not willing to go another 5 yrs. She does "allow" me to go out twice a month which she says is way too much. She wants no part of that side of me, AT ALL, EVER. She has made that abundantly clear.
4. Seriously if it was just about my feelings, I would have moved out 5 yrs. ago.
I understand a woman not liking what I do, I really do. I sorta feel that we have BOTH drawn a line in the sand now, me with my desires, her with her wishes. I guess one could say it is my fault for changing a major parameter of the marriage in the first place. Still, life is a journey, things change, people change. Two can decide to work within these changes or there is nothing. This is where I sit now.
Thanks again for the insights. They are much appreciated.
