I don't know the answer either, Chastity. I wish that I could help you.
Hypnosis might help. It has helped people with other issues that they wanted to avoid. Since you're in the closet, you'd have to find a hypnotist whom you could trust and then tell that person quite a bit in order for the hypnotist to help you. That could be the toughest part.
I'll at least send you my positive thoughts for your welfare.
