I seriously doubt you'll find any enemies or even critics on here so relax.
Believe me, time is not running out. I first became aware of my feminine self pre-teen and I've been dressing privately all my life. It's only in the last three years I've considered transitioning and am on that path now. And I'm 51. Do I wish I'd made the decision earlier ... yes. Do I feel it's too late ... absolutely not. So don't you.
When you say it's too late to be who you've dreamed & wished you could be, that's simply not true. Actually, you can be a woman. But whether your goal is to be 'en femme' 24/7, a transitioned woman or anything in between, you have lots of time. I suggest visiting www.lynnconway.com. There is a wealth of info there about male femininity in general, not just transitioning.
Your age and other circumstances probably have as much to do with your anxiety as cd'ing does. If your seeing a doctor or therapist for that, maybe discuss cd with them. Or find a gender therapist through a doctor or a school program. Someone who can help you find the best way to tell family & friends.
I'm running on here, aren't I? - Just remember, there are lot's of options and you have lot's of time. Don't feel pressured. They'll still be selling dresses & high heels next year.
Take care and good luck
