I was able to find a time of peace here today and talked to my wife in a somewhat normal manner, I may have found the reason for her outburst. I followed the advice of many here on the forum and found a therapist who I have been seeing for several weeks, she has been a huge help in my quest to find some peace of mind. None of my dealings with the therapis have been hidden from my wife, I have been very open about everything.
My wife took a call from the therapist's office the other day about a change in my appointment time, it seems that call was what triggered my wife's outburst. She told me today that it looked as though I finally found someone who would "Put a stamp of approval on your perversion."
I asked two questions in a very calm manner and was shot down on both. The first: "Would you come with me and talk to the therapisst?"
The answer I got was "No, I'm not the crazy one here, you are."
The second: "Would you go on the forum and look at some of the posts?"
I did go into some detail as to where she should look and if she decided to post a question how to go about it. I received the same answer, "No way.".
I did say I was sorry for my remarks yesterday and also told her I was sorry for not telling her that I was a crossdresser many years ago. She told me that her entire life was one big lie and I am to blame, I have ruined her life. She is right and I am so very sorry, but I did not want to end up dying from another heart attack and have her find my stash, I felt that would be a terrible way to find out. I did not get a comment to anything I said which is her way of dealing with something she doesn't like.
I guess I won't hear anything until the next event triggers an outburst.
If anyone wants to find me, my new address is: Make a right turn at the Model A, go to the end of the tow truck, I live between the towtruck and the small parts bins
If I don't make a joke out something I'll just sit here and cry.
Thanks all
Renyta
