Hi grace
I so want to pm you but the site isn't letting me do that yet. But I totally relate to you when you said about how your heart feels and how your head feels. I said earlier that when Scott is dressed, I end up feeling like it wouldnt matter if I was there or not. That is such a change from how he is towards me when he isnt dressed when he makes me feel like the most important woman in the world. It is that change in his attitude towards me that I am struggling to cope with. When I am at work Ive thought that if SCott doesnt dress tonight then I am in for a cosy night of snuggling up on the sofa and having a great chats (and more), if Scott does dress tonight than I may as well go read a book in the bedroom. So I end up resenting it when he dresses and I so dont want to feel like that. I dont mind him dressing at all but only if it doesnt come between us. His skirt or dress or whatever may be a comfort to him but it becomes a brick wall to me.
The replies Ive had have helped me understand why it may be this way. He is struggling to feel comfortable within himself, so maybe I have to start banging on that brick wall to break it down. I never looked at it that way before I talked about it here today. I mean him feeling uncomfortable or nervous or even guilty about who he is. I just dont want him to feel that way and I need to reassure him that he doesnt need to feel that way. It really doesnt matter to me what clothes he wears. I just want him to be the Scott I know he really is and the Scott that I love so much all the time.
