Jenn, my CDing experience is about 14+ years, and my experience online here about 3+ years.
Yet, many here think of me as a CD NEWBIE! I think u both need a LOT MORE TIME to figure out where you're going with your CDing, and how/if she can live with Jenn!
When u say u FEEL like a GW, does that mean u have considered a sex change? If so, THAT sounds like the end of your marriage FOR SURE!