Ok... well I'm not leaving...

[Bree-asaurus]

Hi Bree. Glad to hear you've started to come to certain realizations, and you'll be with us for a very long time. It's also nice to hear that your father is a very supportive person. Good luck on your future plans.

I'm a rare bird... 95% of the people in my life are 100% supportive. That either shows how tough this path is, or how weak I am :P

This is good news! I read your previous thread and well, my heart sank. Fear is a pain in the ass and it will stop you dead in your tracks but the only way to overcome fear is to face it head on. I know, this is pretty cliche but it's true, isn't it? Your strength allows me to build strength for when it comes time to come out to work and go make a full transition.

Yup. It's cliche but it's true.

I'm in a interesting situation because I'm self employed. The only people I have to transition in front of are the people who care about me... my family and friends. I don't have co-workers... I don't have employees... I don't have bosses. If I go back and fourth, it doesn't change a thing. I don't have to prove to anyone who I am and that makes it very easy to end up in a state of purgatory.

But if I'm to get a better job or increase my current income, or learn to be happy for ****s sake, I need to be myself. I can't keep falling back when times get tough.

To anyone in a similar situation, or ANYONE with ANY fear... you will NEVER get better unless you face it. I just hope to god or whatever that this time, I have the courage to follow through with my intentions.