Autogynaphilia. Yes, this is me too. I completely understand what others have said, and it is so nice to know I am not alone in this, and its nice to know it has a name. I have also found that when I am in love, I don't think about crossdressing. I am satisfied, so I think it has something to do with having someone that you love and cares for you, and for whom you also care for equally. I've found that when I am distressed, such as losing someone who I am in love with, the desire to cross dress, along with its associated fantasises arise.
