You're right, Annabelle. As much as I'm not willing, I'm not able. I'll always fervently believe I'm female, born in a male body; totally G.I.D., from the anatomical perspective. Throughout my childhood I've dreamed, wished, and prayed for a correction which never came.
I consider myself TG; never to transition to TS. Too late for that. Had I known then what I know now...
I'm gonna keep working at gaining her acceptance, or she can resign herself to a more or less platonic relationship, in which I pay the tab when we go out... that's me being the guy.
If she wants more than that... well, then let me be my femme side!