Guilt is something I will probably carry around forever in some way.
Yet, the understanding and even encouragement from my wife has given me validation that I never expected to receive. She enjoys contrast and complexity and I honestly think she finds all of this quite fascinating.
However, I have something I call default guilt. It's some inner voice at some level calling me selfish...and trying to tell me to not be annoying, to not go over the top or obsess about any one thing.
My wife is getting tired of reassuring me that this is all OK. I am having a hard time accepting what is really happening because I somehow don't feel I deserve it...so goes the guilt cycle.
Meghan
