I wanted to be a girl when I was a kid, I have very vivid memories of it but I don't think I can honestly say that it wasn't that I wanted to be one so I could dress and act the way I wanted.
I'm not really of the mindset of wishing I could wake up tomorrow as a woman or become my dream woman via a machine. I'm fully aware that if I eventually transition I'll be a woman not entirely dissimilar to the man I am now. I guess for me it's just like I said, I just don't feel like there's anything left about being a man that I strive to cling to.
But on the same token I don't know if I'd want to change my name or live like I'd become a different person. I really do feel somewhere in between everything.
Also I do love me some William Blake. I really recommend his Marriage of Heaven and Hell, it's an interesting exploration on our perspectives and how they shape our world and our reality.
