Quote Originally Posted by mellissawi View Post
I know your feeling. At my heaviest I was 175. About 4 yrs ago I slowly started working out but the weight loss was so gradual that I didnt have the motivation to keep at it. About a year and a half ago I set my mind to it and slowly the pounds went away. Hit a few plateuas along the way but I think I finally hit my lowest. I am at 119 and fit a size 5. I started to keep my legs and under arms shaved, attempting to keep a female appearance without raising questions from anyone. So far no one has raised any questions. But I know your feeling, at times I question myself, am I acting girly, am I walking girly, when I run on the treadmill at the gym I have a feeling that my gestures and shaved legs will give me away. For me its harder because I still have not been able to get out and see the world through the eyes of Mellissa in fear of being caught. In my mind I have a girl trapped just waiting to get out.
Mellissa,

Wow! 119?! How tall are you? If you're around 5'7 or shorter, you would have no trouble blending in. I wish I weren't so tall. It would be so much easier to blend in.

Your features appear to be very fem. So what's keeping you from sharing your beauty with the rest of the world?

Oh I get the whole fear thing. But once you get out there, that fear fades quickly by the excitement. Be bold girl. Get out there!