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Something else that no one ever says out loud, is the addiction factor associated with "dressing" behavior. The combination of "getting away" with it, passing under the radar, not having people stare at you combined with some relief from inability to present in reflection to how one feels can release a lot of dopamine and often becomes a recurrent, addictive behavior. Most people including many who believe that they are transsexuals, if given the opportunity to live an accepted full life in which they can express themselves freely would never chose to transition let alone have SRS.
yes...there is a guy called Charles Kane that transitioned and then untransitioned, its clear that he should have never done it...he's a genuinely weird person and very self promoting...and now he is well known for blaming the medical community and anybody else he can think of for his stupidity...

in general, the world is against us...so he is often embraced as a purient example of what can go wrong, and is held up as warning to transsexuals..when in fact, he is simply NOT a transsexual... when some folks here seem to attack others its often just the a case of identifying statements that sound like something this jerk would say...

that all being said, i think you can just step back from trying to overanalyze something this is incomprehensible at first... since this is all new to you in alot of ways, the way you talk about it, the words you use etc are subject to many years of your own bias and feelings about yourself...and subject to a lack of information

the ideas you've talked about don't preclude anything... lots of transsexuals feel sexual feelings about themselves...i thought my own feelings of sexuality meant i could not be ts...wrongs..

also frankly i think the whole pink fog/addicted behaviour is much more of message board/internet/fantasy thing than something that takes hold in real life....its just so easy to come here and talk the talk...i have met 100's of cd's and dozens of ts personally..i have never met anyone, or talked about anyone that is so addicted to appearing female in real life that its confused with being transsexual or a misguided transition..never..lots of "uber dressers" and "identity dressers" that dress at home all the time..but no Charles Kanes...

its not like we make some phone calls and set up the operations...try a couple hours of electrolysis for example...that's a great cure for addiction to femininity...

you are well served to meet the therapist AND try to meet some cd's and ts's people in real life ...maybe through your therapy group... sitting down for a couple hrs with transsexuals would give you 100x more info than you have right now..and what you need more than anything is information..you are smart and thoughtful based on your posts...information will be very powerful for you