Honestly, I'm tired of looking for deeper meaning into why I crossdress. Sure, it can be a means to an end and that in and of itself is pleasurable, but why then do I continue to dress or find it pleasurable in the first place? Why do I spend many days dressed without the pressure of the big "O"? I simply enjoy dressing and acting feminine and have learned to accept it. Would I continue to do it if it also came with the burdens of truly being a woman. Absolutely. Do I dislike being a guy? Nope, I can enjoy dressing in a suit and tie almost as much (but without any fetish overtones).
Id est, quid id est - It is what it is.
