Hi Milou,
I know what it's like to push your male side to hide the fem side, if your fem side has always been there it won't go away. You say you are a student, will you be able to move from home when you graduate? You may have to be patient and see how you feel then, you don't mention a partner so is there any possible support close to you to help you along ? You have age on your side but you have to work on a balance.
