Another newbie here and in a similar situation as you. Not exactly the same, but similar. In Dec of 2012 I let out my fem self. Basically by telling my wife I had such a self. My marriage suffered a very bumpy patch immediately after, as expected and most do. My wife questioned whether to continue to stay married to me. Now, during those initial weeks, I wasn't caught in a mighty fog per say, as I had a lot of back and forth emotions about whether I should even be letting my fem side out of putting her back in the closet. Many moments where I was still going through denial phases, or just fighting it.... and just my masculine side reasserting itself at times. (and still does)
What is similar is that I thought about it almost constantly. I still think about it a lot, as the layers of denial get peeled off one by one, I realize I am a person with a strong feminine side. And, that side will be with me as it is me to an extent all the time. Sometimes more than others, but always at least a little bit. I have found lately a somewhat less urgent feeling to dress. It feels comfortable and relaxing to do so... maybe some of the newness has now worn off, but there are more times now when I do have a chance to dress, maybe not for a long time but still a chance and I will pass on it. I am seem to reserve more of my dressing time to longer periods of time, although still occasionally going for the shorter duration's as well. What I used to do was to take ANY opportunity to dress, where as now I don't.
