This particular 'pastime' is sometimes a dormant hobby and sometimes an obsession, for me. At low tide I may go for months without really wearing much of anything feminine, but when the tide is high, it can be hard to get my mind to focus on much of anything else.
Presently it is very difficult to get much private time, and that does make a big difference. When I do indulge occasionally, I relax and simply enjoy it. I no longer worry about much of anything concerning my cross dressing - I'm past that - I've accepted who and what I am.
I've always fluctuated in my level of interest in this, as in most things, and I believe it's normal
There's nothing really wrong with wondering anyways - I've learned that can sometimes get me to actually think. I hear it's good for me.
