Isha can answer that. But from my experience I would say confusing. That said given time it will end in anon-issue. To do what Isha if doing takes a willingness to own what you're doing. Make no excuses. This is who I am. I give her a lot of credit.
Isha if you can make it through life, clutching that lever. More power to you. It's difficult to do what what you are doing and keep it together. I know. I did it for 3 years. Those I worked with thought I was a little off. And it became very confusing to those close to me. I hope you go through the rest of your life without needing to transition. But if you do approach it with the same conviction you are using to live in the middle and you'll come out of it ok.
