I could say how HRT and SRS improved my life, and they did, but when I say that I am mostly thinking of just before I went full time. That last year was the worst of my life and there were several times when I considered suicide. To be honest the last two and an half have not been great either.
Did they improve my life compared to the years when I could cope and exist as a man? In many ways they did but I feel battered and beaten from transitioning. If it had been possible I would not have transitioned. Life was not great but it was manageable.
I am glad to be where I am in life now. I am happy I can live openly as a woman. I feel comfortable in my own skin for the first time in my life but if I had known what transitioning would be like and had a free choice I do not think I would have done it.
The thing is that I should have known. I used to read Melissa's posts in those days. Of course I had no choice. I am certain I would not be here now if I had not gone ahead.
People who want to be transsexual are crazy.
