ReineD, Thanks for your insights on this post. Believe me, I am well aware the scenario I spoke about total social acceptance is not realistic. I was saying more of a "what if" angle.
Several years ago I had a cd friend. This was about 2003. We were both in about the same place, recently emerging and living in a kind of semi closet. Had been to a few events, support groups dressed etc. We were self identified CDers.
Fast forward today she is living 24/7, I say she because she is transitioned. She has kept private about GRS. I think socially more options were open to her. Now what I don't know is was she TS all along or did she go from CD to TS. Again, like you say only we can answer that. Maybe I should find her and ask her but she seems overtly sensitive about that now and seems to pull away from the whole trans world.
But my point is there were less constrictions on her than me. I often wonder if given her situation would I have done the same thing. Sometimes I wonder if I am TS, some signs seem to be present. But am so afraid of it because of the socialization piece telling me you are male for the past 50 years. The dysphoria is there and at times very strong but not to the point of saying to hell with my male life. Its akin to having a pet iguana, the animal will only grow as large as the enclosure you give it.
