I've read your responses. There are two issues you are facing; dressing as a woman and getting turned on. Many people would view any man wearing women's clothing as "shocking" in itself. Add outfits that would be 'shocking' on a woman is the other issue. You are really going to attract attention whether or not you make into a passable woman. Obviously, either way you're not going to 'blend' into the environment. To me it sounds as a little exhibitionist? Of course. woman do dress to turn themselves or others on. Whether you're a woman or a male cross dresser you're going to "feel you're doing something really naughty and shocking."
When I was in my twenties and thirties my dressing style was to appear as an attractive woman but not as a provocative woman trying to allure others. Applying how I feel as a man and what attracted me to woman I did not go to the provocative teasing look. I was attracted to women who offered mystery. They were alluring to me.
I don't know what you mean by "controlling it?" And further "dressing 24/7 even if you only do it because it turns me on?" What do you or would you wear to 'turn yourself on' and what really constitutes your definition of 'turning yourself on?"
