Why does crossdressing make me feel empty, alone and scared?

[TolerantCD]

I don't know what you mean by "controlling it?" And further "dressing 24/7 even if you only do it because it turns me on?"

I mean what I become too addicted it's just uncontrollable to the point that I won't ever be able to date or get married while keeping this as a hobby I only engage in when alone and don't feel repressed or stressed if I don't do it, so that I don't actually have to tell anyone about it.