I think a lot of this boils down to security in identity and the fragility of masculinity far too many possess. I think more people fit more towards the middle of the sexuality continuum and that of masculinity and femininity than would like to admit it and CDing for some provides the protection and almost the social permission to express and act on those thoughts both sexual and non-sexual. I have had romantic feelings for both genders both when I identified strictly as male and tried to suppress any thoughts of potential transition or feminine expression in any form and now that I'm exploring the real me to see where I actually fit. My journey isn't sexual it's a quest for truth and authenticity to find out who exactly the real me is and what she needs. All I know is that even though I prefer women if I ever do end up with a male partner any shame I may have felt in that is gone and I can thank letting go of the rigidity of what everyone saw me as and wanted me to be for that. I'm still in the process of accepting myself and figuring out what exactly it is that I need to accept and I have a long way to go but I'm on my way and that makes me happy.
